New Blog Thingie

This blog will still be continued.

You can find my poetry and stories on my new blog, Waves.

You need the address. Oh right. Here. Clicking this link will take you right there. If clicking the link does not work (It should.) You can copy & paste the address into your browser's address bar:

http://www.thewavesonarollercoaster.blogspot.com/

If that doesn't work, someone help you. Run a Google search, I suppose. I'm always on the prowl for feedback. If my work sucks (I don't think so!) tell me why it sucks. I'd like to improve.

Um... new comers. This blog is just about my life and things like that. I've had this blog since last year, I've only began updating it again in the past few weeks. It's mostly about what goes on in my head (plenty, trust me) and other life events (summer, etc). I'd really like to know what others think of my work.

Just as a warning, my works may not be in chronological order. In that case, you should always refer to when I wrote that particular story. Always in "curly-cue" brackets {} and written day/month/year. Like this -> {30/6/09}. Stories before 21 June are not posted on this blog.

All work on the blog is original work done by me, Aden Recreated and cannot be used without my consent. Thanks.

More information will be on the way. Meanwhile, make sure you follow thewavesonarollercoaster for your poetry and story needs!

29 June 2009

So last night was just... freaky. Nothing happened except me feeling this energy around me for a little while. I don't know where it's coming from, but I swear it was there. It was there.

And on top of that, I was anxious and it showed when I was talking to a friend of mine. I told him about the energy and the voices (because I was hearing voices on top of it all but they went away for a little while.). I didn't know what was going on so I began looking up psychic abilities and things like that, psychic energy. I didn't find anything, unfortunately. Nothing made sense to me and as a result I was almost constantly (or so it felt) updating my Twitter with how I was feeling and in the end I took a Thorazine and fell asleep. Nothing made sense at all last night.

27-6-09

Okay. Anyone who has been following me on Twitter or is a friend of mine on Skype knows that I've been a little out of sorts lately. These surges of energy are not from any drugs that I take, they're just there you know? Very annoying. They're particularly strong when I listen to Linkin Park's "Numb" (a sign that I should stop listening to that song? Perhaps.). 

I've been told (by the voices in my head) that I'm a telekinetic. Do I know if they're right? No, because I've never tried. Why? Because I'm terrified of the power that they have. They have a lot of power and I'm afraid to see if, for once, they are telling the truth they'll be ready to take EVERYTHING from me. If they take everything from me, then I'm doomed because I will not remember much of anything ever again.

It's an unpleasant feeling to have voices in your head constantly telling you what to do & how to do it & when to do it. I'm liable to fall into the trap that tells me if I use red ink they'll go away, if I do this at a certain time I won't have nightmares. Nightmares are my punishment for when I don't do as they say. I believe that they nearly killed me. They said they would be able to do it too, when they're ready to dispose of me, but I don't tell my parents that for fear that I will be sent to a hospital right before I start work (more on that later). Or just in general. I have to register for classes and take the placement test at my community college. Stuff like that. And I just can't can't can't have them interfering. If they kill me, then what do I do?

Moving on.

If you follow me on Twitter or a friend of mine on Skype, then you know I got a job. Training starts on 2 July. I have to re-arrange some things but I can get it done. I know I can.

Questions or concerns? You most likely have my information. If not, then you can always just comment. Thanks for reading.

3 June 2009

I know I haven't posted here in quite some time. I've lost the blogging feeling these days. But I'm kinda back but I have to go in a little bit. I have an Art Class and finals to worry about.

To be honest with you, I feel kinda anxious right now. I nearly lost it in English today because I guess I had been tugging on my pen and my friend Chris was like "What are you doing?" so I stopped and looked around and looked back and Chris who basically had a look that said "Are you alright?" I told him about the Voices and what they do to me. "They take stuff away from me," I said. "What do they take away from you?," he asked. "Memories," I replied. I wish that I had gotten more out but I really was scared and did not know what to do next. I also just found some stuff out about his girlfriend that I won't mention here.

I haven't taken any medication since...yesterday or the day before, but I think it was the day before. I don't remember. I have a hard time remembering stuff sometimes. It's tricky for me. Easy words sometimes suddenly become a challenge when I'm reading aloud. Like I was reading a friend's message aloud to myself earlier today and I got stuck for about a minute on the word "frequent". I feel a little lost, a little out of it, so I'm going to see if I can get ahold of a friend who can get me into gear a little later...see if the feeling doesn't pass before I waste my energy on the one phone call. I don't want that. I just don't.

If you're new in reading this blog, you should be well aware that I might post things frequently about whatever is happening in my head pertaining to voices or about summer and graduation, both of which are quickly approaching. But I find I post mostly about the Voices in my head and what goes on surrounding that. And anxiety as well. I've been told that I have anxiety disorder with compulsions. Or something similar to that. I do not remember the exact wording. I also have depressive episodes. I just recently got over a depressive episode. Am I boring you? If so, please stop reading.

But yea. That aside I'm a cool person to get to get to know. Just as long as you don't go into the realm of the overly personal, I'll answer just about anything you have to ask. Sound good?

Okay. I'll keep you posted, however long that may be.