Well...

It's almost Halloween, Thanksgiving and Christmas time, and that means I get really down during those three holidays and that'll get me all the way up to my eighteenth birthday (6/February). Let's see....on Halloween I can be found crying because it's almost Thanksgiving and because a person I thought I love couldn't trust me enough to tell me that there was a rumour going around that I had been kissing him in the boys' locker room. (I wouldn't mind taking a peek in there, but stilll). Between Thanksgiving and Christmas I'll start crying because it's Thanksgiving and nearly Christmas and I get really down on myself...probably because around that time I wanted to die. I mean, I wrote my will and everything. But moving on....and once Christmas hits town I'm done for until my birthday, as I said.

But yea....I'm doing well in my classes and I know I got a decent grade on my German test so I'm all yes! :)

Now on Tuesday I just have to play catch up in my classes. If the pep-rallies didn't bore the bejesus out of me I'd've went to school that day...seriously!

How are you?

Update for 3 October 2008

I keep forgetting to tell you that i got back my Journal and Story notebook on Thursday last. :) I haven't been writing in it much due to school work, but I'm trying to keep up as much as I can.

I fell asleep in the middle of my American Law homework and woke up at 12:08 am this morning...and woke up at 6:30 am this morning. So I didn't get much sleep. I didn't finish my Geometry test or my English homework for that matter, you know?

Being on Medication is hard. :(

You Know What's Über-Annoying?

Is when I talk to a friend of mine and no matter how long I wait he seldom ever responds. I mean we [somehow] got a conversation rolling on Saturday but now...are we really meant to be friends. I wonder about the same thing with my other friend on Facebook...but with him it's like so long as he's logging in and doing something be it join a group, add a friend, etc then I'm pretty okay. But with this other friend....I've known him for what feels like the longest time and just recently we don't talk and fiddle around with the smilies as much as we used to, you know? I've known both of these people for the longest time and neither one of them are talking to me for reasons I don't understand and it's making me feel like I've done something wrong with both of them. I'd like to know what it is but I am afraid to ask them for fear that they might be mad at me...or more so if they're already mad. What have I done? One friend I just talk to and the other I sent a quote that he seemed to take well in my opinion. So...I don't know what the problem is. I wish I knew so I can rectify this mess....if it really is a mess. And if it's not a mess and it's a case of them not wanting to be my friend anymore, then I'll be devastated because I miss them both like crazy...have for quite some time. But I think I know why one of them is not talking to me and I hope it's not because that one of my friends has a girlfriend that he talks to, I'm betting, on a daily basis. I wish he talked to me like he talks to her. :(

Other than that, there's nothing big going on, minus my medication.