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I've found a new kind of music to help me sleep to, but now I'm afraid to go to sleep because I'm afraid the music won't work and I'll have nightmares. I was scared last night, and the night before and the night before that I think. Yes, I was and it's not particularly pleasant to know that you are afraid to fall asleep. I would rather fall asleep and wake up super early and have no nightmares than to wake up at x am/pm and have had several nightmares. Maybe I'm being irrational, but right now I don't care. I'm too scared to go to sleep. I'm afraid of the possibility of the fact that I will have nightmares and keep having them. I know I"m afraid of that. I want to tell a friend of mine but he's got so much going on I'd rather not tell him until later, if later comes.

I'm tired, but I'm scared to sleep right now. Maybe in an hour or so...