This is just to let people know I'm alive and well.

I wonder... does anyone even READ this blog anymore? Teehee. :)

Kaesse1 [feat SPAMone] Ich kann dich sehen

This is "Ich kann dich sehen" by Kaese1 featuring SPAMone. It's an emotional pretty song that I get this big bang out of listening to because it's just that fucking awesome.

Lyrics can be found here.

This is the video if the embedded one does not work.

Okay that's it. Ooh and look at the poem I posted in my other blog, please? Thankees much! :d

PS--It's in German. All of it. I can only speak a little German so translations are out of the question.

Rant [3 July 2009]

Okay. The following is a rant. Don't like rants? Don't harass me about it.

In the meantime, you can still check out Waves. I'm working on a short story for that so you should always look for those (if I'm not horrifically busy over this time period).

Thanks.

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Okay. I don't really much care who reads this because it's the world wide web, but I have an immense problem with people reading my stuff I don't want to read it--like my parents and the like. Hypocritical, I know.

Sidetracked: Back on course?

Okay, so here's what I think about most people on Skype (NOT my friends there). The people who add me either want one or a combination of four things: Sex, friendship, cam, multiple pictures of me. Not in that order. I've found that it's usually a combination, others may say differently. Are there kind, genuine people on Skype? Yes. Those people are my friends and they know who they are. But, in my experience, it's only a small percentage. Like, say I've gotten 150 requests (I have a feeling it is much less than that) to be my friend. Out of those 150 requests, say 50 don't bother adding me for their own personal reasons (I'm not complaining about that. What kind of a moron would I be?). So you have 100 people left, right? Okay. 100 people. I would say that maybe between 90 and 95 people want a combination of the above things (Sex, friendship, cam, multiple pictures) What do the remaining 5 to 10 want? Friendship. (And I know this is a shit analogy). Do you see my point? Am I saying that the people who just want friendship don't want cam? It might sound like it, but I don't mean to come across that way. Is seeing another person's face a good thing? Certainly. Do you have to like it? No. I specify in my profile that I don't add anyone older than 38 (my mom's age) and that cam and voice chat are on a case by case basis.

What the fuck does that mean?

Means that I talk to you, I like you, I add you--despite the enforcements I have up.

Do I have people older than my parents on my friends list on Skype? Not that I know of (because who knows with the web?) Why? Because that's just creepy! (In MY opinion) I mean, I guess some people like that, but I don't really. And really...if I got a guy older than my parents asking me to be my friend on Skype, I'd follow the above guidelines. If all they want is sex (like most people I have come across want. Most, not all.), then when I find this out I block them. I've actually had one guy come to me (online of course) complaining about his girlfriend and how he (from what I understood) wanted someone to get him off. So he chose me. Why? I guess I had sex appeal or something like that.

I find it a bit surprising to be honest that people think I'm attractive (Hi there Miss Low Self-Esteem). I don't think so but hey, you think what you want. That's fine by me. It's like, I have a profile on Skype. Do people read it? Sure--that small percentage read it. What do the remaining do? Jump right in and start IMing and calling (my signature says text before you call. I don't answer calls from people I don't know.). Or they'll call first and then IM. Or people will actually take the time to READ my profile and signature & go something like "Okay...maybe she wants this." and go from there. You know?

I'm fed up with people wanting me to participate in conversation that is win-lose (They win, I lose). Like, I don't mind sexual jokes I guess but when it's like let's have cybersex or something to that effect. It's like NO FUCK OFF, you know? It's tedious.

But what does this lead up to?

Tonight.

I was talking with an acquaintance on Skype & he (I'm pretty sure it said "Male" on his profile sheet) wanted to do cam. I'm sitting in my room, in the dark (because I like that) and instead of telling him no (which, looking at the message he sent to me from another account of his, would have led to an argument), I blocked him. He'd asked a few times already and I was feeling kind of fed up (is that all almost anyone on Skype wants???, I always think when the question of the cam comes up, and it almost always does). I blocked him but then he goes and makes a whole new account, saying he's going to block me. Personally? I think he was having some sort of complex and wanted to be the one on top. I don't care about your petty little complexes and the need to block back. You're blocked. Shut up & get a life.

Spiting me is hard sometimes. Here's what I personally can't stand, like pet peeves?:

• The "holier-than-thou"
• The supercilious (I love that word!)
• Those who want to be on top all the time (that what this person sounded like)
• People who get whiny and shit when things don't go their way (see above)
• Cowards (There's a blog from last year on this subject)
• When people ask me for sex...cybersex. No, ew. Tried it, didn't like it. I don't talk about that. You will never find a blog about that by me unless it's about the horrors of it.

But yea. This whole blog is about me being pissed about what happens on Skype from my experience. I've had good experiences, I've made good friends (they, once again, know who they are :) ). I'm just talking about the bad I think happens & my experiences. You don't have to agree, you don't have to disagree. You don't have to like this at all, so don't complain.

Disagree? Can you NOT bite my head off? Tell me your opinion(s).